Unknown relation

. . . and there is this guy , I see , few times after few years ,
A man with a mark of intelligence , class talks , 
Sheer genius , sharp in words , and high on anger ,
There is this thing in him or is it just I feel ? 

I grew up seeing him , the way he portrayed himself ,
I find him good at times , I tell that to myself ,
He is good at giveaways , time and morals ,
He lacks at few places , that I disrepute ,
He lacks at places , I am found ,
There is this thing in him or is it just I feel ? 

Perhaps a relative , hence I respect ,
Perhaps , a closer relative to my closest , hence I respect even more ,
Perhaps , am the one he ignores the most , hence I keep respecting for that too ,
I see him smile that smile for one , I feel outcast ,
I see him be in front , and see none of me and mine around ,
There is this thing in him or is it just I feel ?

 

At times , I found a way to make things better ,
I came ahead , to talk a few things good ,
He did , he did very well , but for just that moment in a well ,
10 minutes later , we were nothing but strangers ,
I have been bleeding this hurt , I am bleeding it with smile ,
I least bother now , I worry  not much about ,
For I have people , who are more to me ,
There is this thing in him or is it just I feel ?

I am happy over one thing , and only that thing ,He may ignore my presence , he may dislike me ,He loves more the one , I love as well ,And , that loves me more , than anyone else ,There is this guy , I cannot ignore ,There is him , I respect and least adore ,I still doubt that one thing ,There is this thing in him or is it just I feel ? 

- Bharath R Rao